Heavenly Abode

im lost

in thoughts of longing

to be with someone

im afraid to love

im damned again

after being out of it

after his kisses

have awaken me

i don’t know

how to hold my mind

beyond the tears

of hoping for us

im here

his no where

and will be long

since will meet again

im damned to the core

i want to be with him

but, i can’t

im not yet ready

for matrimony

im young

too young

even

after 3 years

i don’t think i would be

im scared

to tell the truth

cause i don’t know

if i would have to lie

im damned, again.